Sometimes the hurt of losing you makes me feel as if I'm losing my mind. The thoughts of how you suffered makes me feel I can't swallow or breathe.. I feel like screaming when ppl say oh George wouldn't want that, say i need to let go.. I know you wouldn't want that.. But no I won't let go. Il never let go. And I don't want to.. And I will always treasure the time I had with you And I will never forget how brave you were right till the end.. I wish you were here and I'd give my last breath to bring you back.. I wish I could make other ppl feel better though.. Truth is it never gets better. It's so horrible to see the pain I feel in the eyes of others.. But the pain is what's real. And I believe you still around us all somehow.. I'm sorry if I make you sad or worry. . Just wish everything was how it used to be.. I miss you so much and I love you with all my heart and I always will George xxxxxxx